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Ask and you shall receive.

Simple phrase but rarely it is practiced by many people.


With the next few weeks promising to be a bloody war,i think i should take the time to tell myself before going into battle- I CAN DO THIS!

The more number of times you say this to yourself ,i believe you will reach it by hook or by crook!

So,no more whining or complaining or regretting the time lost!

Accept the predicament and challenges that face you,and work with what you have with whatever time you have left.

And even if in the end,you fail to achieve your target,you will get stronger the next time!

I CAN DO THIS!

I have been a bit disturbed by something lately.

I find that i was quite unhappy with a lot of small things lately. All the petty stuff adds up making me feel frustrated and eventually just taking it out on other people.

Small things like not having enough time for work,reaching home late,class after class,expecting friends to do something but they did not, in the end it just boils up inside me.

However,i soon realize that life will always try to pull you down,it's how hard you can take it and keep pushing,not giving in and blaming others when the going gets tough.

My dear lecturer once sent me a sms,

Results! Results! Results!

During the entire class on Monday Morning, everyone could barely concentrate on what the lecturer was saying. In everyone's mind (mostly), results are coming out at 12pm! Gosh,how will i do? did i do enough to pass? what if i didn't get what i want?

Coincidentally , it was also my friend's Ee Laine's Birthday! (the GOOD)We had a nice time eating at this great restaurant called Ah Lyes Fish Curry Head after the class ended at 11am. YUMMY FOOD and we took lots of pictures and joking around. Some wanted to watch a movie after lunch then only check the results,but i think some were nervous about the results also when the clock struck 12pm.

Just then,as i was in the bathroom after eating, (the UGLY) Julian called. He straight away asked me about my results and told me his. Sincerely i was happy with him when he told me he passed all his papers beyond expectation,but i was a bit uncomfortable,let's put it that way,with the tone of his voice. He sounded insulting at the same time and more so on the next phone call. Sometimes i feel people should have the humility to treat people with respect.

So,after that,i did a stupid thing. In retrospect,i should not have told my classmates about Julian's call right after,because they all wanted to check their results right away. No movie,and the mood dampened a bit. Thus,they drove to Siew Lai's place to check altogether while i drove home to check mine. While driving home,honestly,i had cold shivers and was extremely nervous.

When i finally arrived,i did a prayer and prepared. Signed in into Hotmail,and immediately when i did that,i received an email ''RESULTS ACCA ONLINE''. Clicked on it,could barely breath and scrolled down slowly. PASS,PASS,PASS,PASS. I should have been very happy,and i was,but i felt a tinge of disappointment when i saw F4-80 Marks. I tried my best,but sometimes maybe the luck of the questions was against me.

Overall,a frantic day. To one of my friend,do not give up ok. There is always a second chance. Strive harder next time!

SPONTANEOUS!

1. The quality or condition of being spontaneous.
2. Spontaneous behavior, impulse, or movement.

As i write this post,it is 10.51am on a beautiful Saturday Morning,i have watched GI JOE 2 times in 2 days,and i am going to watch 2 more movies in the next 2 days. I did a spontaneous love song dedication through Red Fm's Nisha Late Nite Love Songs few days ago while driving back from Toastmasters. Speaking of Toastmasters,i spontaneously bought packets of sweeties for my Club's 21st Anniversary celebration at a petrol kiosk.

Thinking back,it ACTUALLY FEELS GOOD BEING SPONTANEOUS.

There was once a saying, ALWAYS LOOK AT BOTH SIDES OF THE COIN TO ENRICH YOUR LIFE.


Do something you never thought you would have the bravery and courage to do so. Watch a movie by yourself right after class,chit chat with a stranger,tell jokes to random people or just act crazy all the time.

3 weeks ago,on Monday after my class ended at 11am,i drove back when i heard the cue-to-sms for Red Fm Cd of the week giveaway. I had no idea what cd it was but i just sms. Few seconds later after i smsed,i got a phone call from Aly,red fm's dj! It was adrenaline rush,just listening to my voice on the radio. Haha,and i got the 1,2,3,4 I love you album.

Add colour and vigour into your life by being cuckoo. Defy people's expectations by doing things that other people would never even try to do. Trust me,it will bring you places and give you experiences that will amaze you most and break your boundaries!

Do you believe in fate?

I repeated the question again because i have asked the same to myself countless time in my young 20 years of living.

A quote that i have always believe in came from the Terminator Movies
-THERE IS NO FATE BUT WHAT WE MAKE FOR OURSELVES-

My heart sticks with this quote because what it really says is 'if you want something,go and get it. Do not wait for something to happen! Make it happen!'


This quote is also a wake up call for people who are just lazy, waiting for the one lucky day that they strike lucky,and win the 50 Million lottery. NO,it's not going to happen!


Recently though,thinking back,i believe that things just happen as steps. Steps that will lead on to bigger things when it will all finally come in one place.

When i was rejected countless times in the past,i felt terrible. The day i found out i won't be able to study overseas,when i got rejected for my SHELL interview,when i felt alone among all classmates,when i got rejected by my crush.

Now i realize that those were just small steps. What it all really meant was my time wasn't ready when i will fly. Same goes to everyone out there. No matter how hard you try at something,if it doesn't work,sometimes it's just that your time has not arrived to be a STAR!

My advice to you is this, DREAM BIG ,AIM HIGH FOR THE SKY, FOR IF YOU SHALL FALL,AT LEAST YOU WILL REST AMONG THE HIGH CLOUDS! THE HARDER YOU WORK,THE LUCKIER YOU GET! AND FATE RESIDES WITH THOSE WHO TAKE THAT EXTRA MILE!

The genius orated that '' time is ever so relative. It's simple. If a guy sees a hot woman goes by,to him a few seconds would seem like a flash,but if he touches a hot stove,a few seconds would seem like eternity!''

Brilliant words... This past week,i have discovered that life is ever moving so rapidly. There is no such thing as constant,you have to keep on adapting,evolving according to your circumstances. It is more than ever,survival of the fittest!!!


I have learned that when you are faced with a new challenge,what do you do? If you know that it will push you out of your comfort zone,will you take up the challenge? Or will you be like me,calculating the pros and cons? I hate the second method,but 9 times out of 10 ,you have to make a sacrifice in one way.

Take the SUNWAY STUDENT LEADERSHIP PROGRAM. I was shortlisted but i was so unsure whether it will affect my studies. Will the benefit of it outweigh the cost of missing classes potentially,having less time for myself and studies? What do you say? Being an Acca student,admittedly,time management is everything. So we have to calculate the OPPORTUNITY COST!

In the end,a phrase came into my mind. I got to know it from my friend,Chew Teck Seng,who persuaded me to join Toastmasters Contest recently which i won 2nd runner up. If it hadn't been for his morale boosting phrase,i wouldn't have known my potential.

He said this,